|Busy bees :)|
|I'd love to paint our hives like this!|
The time came when Ayden was around 8 or so months old. It was interesting to observe what exactly made it feel "right." It was coincidentally (or maybe not) around the time that he began ingesting enough solid food to get some nutrients from it, as opposed to getting it all from my milk. He also stopped crying when others held him and started forming and enjoying his own relationships with the familar adults in his life. In other words, he was ready to be apart and therefore, I also was ready. As it turns out, my anxiety came from knowing on some instinctual level that he wasn't ready to be apart from me. Once he was ready, I was able to leave without a single concern or moment of anxiety.
Fast forward to today and since his first birthday, David and I have both left him a few times, for hours each time. He is happy and content the entire time we are gone and, though I think about him while I am away, there is no anxiety or aprehension on my end. It has been yet another experience where, when we tried to force something it didn't feel right at all, but waiting to let it unfold naturally felt right and ended up with the same intended outcome. I am so grateful to be in a situation that allows the flexibility for Ayden to grow into things on his own time.
Today, David and I both left between 8 and 9 this morning. David went to a local Farmer's Market meeting and got home around 12:00. Then I got home around 3:30. When David got home, Ayden was napping and then they played until I returned.
David sent me lots of pictures. I really enjoyed my day, not because Ayden wasn't with me, but because I enjoyed having the peace required to listen and atually retain new information (I call Ayden my own "ADD"). After I did get home I had lots of patience, even when he was screaming at me while I wiped his face after dinner, and loved how excited he was to see me when I got home (which is something many stay at home moms don't get to experience often). I think it is safe to say I have reached the stage where I can enjoy myself while I am away and can return feeling rejuvinated. I am definitely still not ready to be away from Ayden over night but feel fine about the idea of David and I going on more dates or me doing whatever might come up bee or otherwise.
We ended our evening with lots of fun on this warm day while David did some work in the garden. We are definitley ready for Spring to officially be here!
|Who needs snow?|
When did it finally feel right to be away from your baby?